PAINTINGS BY YEAR

1992 to 1996

Back then I was trying to develop a practice which countered the male gaze somehow. Painting was not fashionable, political and ideas based painting even less so, most feminist work was conceptual, Jenny Saville was not known at the beginning of the 90’s.

These photos are from catalogues and art journals that my work featured in.

Here is an article I wrote for Versus magazine, a journal produced by two history of art post-graduates in Leeds. One was Heidi Reitmaier, then on the Women’s ArtHistory MA course at Leeds, and she became a good friend.

My installation of 6 paintings was selected for East International in 1993

Which was quite a coup.

Part of it toured round the UK, and it got a good notice from Adrian Searle in the Independent newspaper, which mentioned me by name.

Coincidentally  two other artists from the North East were selected, and we all taught at Sunderland University in the Art Foundation department.

From this I ended up with a solo show at Bradford’s municipal gallery, Cartwright Hall, in 1996, and the curator, Steve Manthorp, applied for a grant to produce this very nice catalogue, with an essay written by Heidi Reitmaier.

I am very grateful to Steve and to Heidi for this.

Copies went to university libraries around the country.

So maybe my work had some effect on other young artists!

It was quite radical for Bradford I think.

Showing in the same building at the time was a collection of PreRaphaelite tapestries belonging to Andrew Lloyd-Weber, and a show of delicate almost miniaturist paintings by the Singh Twins, Amrit and Rabindra, now with MBEs and plenty of recognition, unlike me! I was too radical, and earning a living as a knitwear designer and being a single parent with a mortgage, certainly got in the way of pushing my painting career.

TIR NAN ÒG, FOR MOLLY

oil on linen, 132 x 121 cm

I think Molly Bullick might have liked this one, it has a lot of writing on it, never as beautiful as her non-but-almost calligraphic paintings.

I had been revising this poem, so it has became an apt memorial . For a multi-skilled artist who was never content with one way of doing things, architect, printmaker, jeweller, dyer, stitcher, painter.

Tìr nan Óg (for Molly)
The young in one another’s arms, birds in the trees,
William Butler Yeats, Sailing to Byzantium, 1927

we raise our antlered heads
speak our minds
not against
not yet baptised, going
deep under –
there our
deer-son, doe-daughter
headdresses lie
in the clear lake in spring
edged with water-crowfoot
singing swans
volume depths down with bubbles
caught

we were always living near water
here our footsteps follow
we inventing old freedoms lost

we choose, we are hostage
checked in
advisable declared
all heroes
naked in the west
blowing in
always beneath the clouds beyond
skirted with rain

I WILL COME HOME

oil, acrylic and pencil on collaged canvas, 93 x 93 x 4 cm

Looking at Cy Twombly gave me the confidence to be looser with my prairie flowers and I used a soft pencil as well as oil paint, as he did on his huge bare canvases unlike this which is not huge at all. The rusty dribbles are a glaze medium which has gone toffee coloured, and there was a lot of abstract prep before I brought it indoors to paint the flowers,  the watering cans, my suburban garden surrounded by big bungalow roofs, and the snake is back.

SMALL GODS OF IMPORTANT THINGS

Oil over acrylic on a collaged canvas 100 x 100 x 3.8 cm

Here I am reading a book on the sofa next to four of my painting crushes on the tilted-up table next to me, and my orange note book with the tape measure rolled up on it.

I enjoyed painting the books, upside down. They are the large Bonnard book by Isabelle Cahn, a newish book on Vanessa Bell by Sarah Milroy and Ian A. C. Dejardin, Andrew Cranston’s book of small works, Never a Joiner, with invaluable and challenging writing by him on each, and Mirror Matters, a monograph on Aubrey Levinthal, a young painter who lives in Philadelphia.

MY AUTUMN GARDEN COMES TO ME

SOLD  acrylic and oil on collaged canvas, 100 x 100 x 3.8 cm

I painted the last stages of this while listening to Arundhati Roy read her new book, Mother Mary Comes to Me, about her mother and her own life. She was a great Beatles fan, and I guess she still is.

I painted the under layers and the lines, which are paint runs and glaze medium runs before I had worked out how the painting was going to be. In the autumn the echinacea petals shrivel but the cones are still colourful especially when the low autumn sun shines on them.

This painting is available from Graystone Gallery, in Edinburgh

ON A HOT HOT AFTERNOON

acrylic and oil on collaged canvas, 61 x 61 cm

The wonderful Elizabeth Peyton book of portraits, and the tape-measure snake – always there, and various other clutter, in front of the desk and the lamp and the old abstract diptych, and myself in a rather Egyptian pose lying on the sofa on a hot afternoon. Originally painted just after the swan book one, but given a going over more recently with palette knife. The title does refer to D H Lawrence’s poem, The Snake, and also, sneakily, to Andrew Cranston’s snake paintings …..

I wish I could paint as nonchalantly as Peyton does.

WHY DO YOU CARE FOR ME?

acrylic and oil on collaged canvas, 100 x 100 x 3.8 cm

The faithful watering cans, the see-through garden – it has the echinaceas, the love-in-the-mist, the sunflowers, the bins, me in the greenhouse. It’s a bit wide-angle though. Some of the under-painting was just too lovely to paint over which is a good thing, I prefer not to fill the whole canvas with stuff happening.

The jaunty watering cans

THE LITTLE MIRROR

oil on canvas, 50 x 50 cm

Self-portrait seems to be what I am painting at the moment. The mirror is on the windowsill and really old, probably Georgian, rather freckled and not a clear reflection, and the contre jour light makes it an interesting image. I got rid of any attempts at the view through the window – it was a bright autumn afternoon, and the face swims up from the room with little detail. A lot of scraping on and off.

ME AND MY BABY GRAND

acrylic, oil and metal foil on collaged canvas, 100 x 100 x 3.8 cm

This started with ideas about the piano because I was writing a  poem that included the Steinway concert grand I had piano lessons on as a teenager. Then I remembered the very pretty baby grand in an antique shop in Fakenham I used to wish I had room for.

Here is the watercolour I started with in my sketchbook. For reference I was looking at Steinway’s website and it struck me how the new piano strings were a very bright brassy colour, so I used some old metal foil – ie fake gold leaf – which I put on extremely messily. The piano lid makes me think of wings. Either the piano is an avenging angel about to eat me, or it is protecting me, I am not sure which.